one day your life will flash before your eyes

it's been a week. exactly 7 days ago and on my birthday i experienced losing someone so close to me. we all knew it was time, time to accept what was coming, time to let him rest peacefully. i don't know what i feel, because i keep seeing his ernie bott face and i keep thinking that the next time i go home to boston, he'll be sitting there telling me how tall i am (all 5'3" of me) and asking me what some english word means. he was the greatest human being i've ever met. he didn't smoke, drink, cuss, or gamble. besides that, i think the most honorable trait was that in the 20 years that i knew him, i never once heard him speak an ill word about someone or treat anyone without respect and kindness. he took care of his family working from the ground up. and never once have i heard anyone say a bad thing about him. i can't sum up what an amazing man he was. he lived as a saint and i'm sure he's a saint now. i still remember him taking the T all the way to cambridge to pick me up from school, cane in hand, baseball cap on. I would always get so sleepy on the greenline and he would have to drag my twatty butt back to mason place. i will always remember him watching basketball (chicago bulls fan) in his favorite green chair, handwashing his clothes well into his 90's, or getting up every morning to buy the chinese newspaper and perhaps a cha shiu bao or dan tat for dicky and i. i was so lucky to have gone back to the place in china where he raised his family and to spend that amazing summer reliving his past with him. my only regret is not spending more time with him towards the end. I love him so much and i'm so thankful to have met such an angel in my life. my grams told me that him passing on my birthday is his present for me to live, so that every year, as i grow another year older, his dream lives on. he wanted us to live honorable and simple lives, educating ourselves to become better people. i only hope to be half the person he was and i hope to pass on his message to my kids. his birthday gift was that he brought all of my uncles and aunt together in a way i never thought possible (despite the family drama), it was my first birthday where they were all there with me and he in spirit (i wouldn't ask for anymore). when people ask you who your hero is or who you aspire to be, you often hear a celebrity or some famous figure, but i can 110% say that he's mine and everything about this man was real, honest, and good to the core. just when i was losing faith in family, my culture, and where i came from, he renewed my faith. i miss him so much and its lonely to being here by myself, but i know he's want me to be strong and to be happy for the amazing 20 years that i got to spend with him and the 98 years (+2, 1 from the heavens and 1 from the earth) that he graced this earth with his presence. tomorrow they will bury you and i wish i was there, it's finally kicking in that you're gone but i'll always be there with you to hold your hand just i did when i was 5 years old.

“You can shed tears that he is gone,
or you can smile because he has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all he's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see him,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember him only that he is gone,
or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what he'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”

-David Harkins

so gramps:
I love you and I miss you.
I will always hear your voice in my head
and remember your ernie bott face and mica feet.
I will try my best to live a life that you would be proud of.
May you watch over our entire family, bring us together
and may you forever rest in peace.

always,
ka wing

staying strong for each other

hey god,

its me again. i don't if you're really up there, i want to believe you are.
please just give us some more time to all be there by his side.

please let my grandma in HK know that we're there.

they're good people.


that's my birthday wish.

always,
Victoria K. L

seems like everyone's for themselves these days...

greetings again!

it has been far too long and much has happened in my otherwise dull life.

pretty epic summer, saw a lot of people, ate a lot food, went to alotta places, and most importantly, gained a whole new perspective (oh and about an additional 6 lbs, sorry family.) i will update soon with pictures, hopefully...

its the beginning to another school year and its not starting off the way i would like it to. i wish i had my family and friends with me, because they are without a doubt the most important part of my life. And by friends i mean the ones who've stuck by you, take you for who you are no matter what, make you laugh at yourself, and the ones who after being apart for long, it feels as if nothing's changed.

so shout out to everyone who truly matter:

mumsicles & dadsicles
despite my anger towards how gosh darn annoying you two are, i will always miss your "ways" wherever i go and your words of wisdom are always in my head. you might not think it, but i'm listening.

presh little brother, Dicky
you make me so mad sometimes with your obnoxious teenage puberty self, but i'm glad to see how close we are. you are the most special person i've ever met. thanks for the laughs.

guido cousins
jess, jenn, bev, bren for the relationship we have compared to peanuts...and for always being there to play taboo with.

my potato pals (the ones that i actually stayed friends w/after high school and made the effort to make our friendship last)
most importantly- Burkey Turkey, Buhbies, & the Apester, ya'll are RIDICULOUS.
double c's, dewek, brown suga, sometimes the italian stallion and miss. 2.0 avril.

kwastal/moesha/sista from anotha motha
you made my life in maryland bearable. thank you for EVERYTHING

cousins back in the homeland for being AMAZING FOBS, i mean that.
all my aunts and uncles who take such good care of us every time we go back to HK. truly gives me that warm and family feel. some of my happiest moments are with you all.

grandparents-for teaching my parents the morals and values that hopefully will be passed onto me to become a better person.

the aunts & uncles that have no family relation but nevertheless, treat me as if i were their own-
Susie Yee Yee & Uncle Richard, Gracie Yee Yee & Uncle Frankie, Ruby Yee Yee & Family (Jane), godfather David & Auntie Holly (plus Carmen).

i don't know where this post comes from but i think after some reflection on my life, i needed to lay out those who are apart of MY family (blood relation or not). everyone who i owe so much of my happiness to and gave me the feeling that i'm never alone wherever i go. i've realized that money seems to tear so many people apart or their selfish and cheap ways drive people away. the people listed have never been "cheap" or have been stingy with the relationship, whether they have it or not, have been more then willing to put others before themselves. thanks guys for being such great people for me to compare which relationships are real and which are simply not meant to last. people will come and go in my life, but hopefully i can hold onto you all.


WICKED CHEESY but it must be said...

until next time

Peace & Love Always,
Eggaroo/Fiquid

i am slowly withering away...

herro munchkins.

i'm back in the HK. this summer has been way too busy and stressful. i have not stopped since i've come home from school. we just came back from zhuhai/macau and i think i sweated 56% of my body's liquid content away. not to mention i mght now have epilepsy due to my mother's constant camera flash. cause with mumsicles, its no matter if the sun's out and beaming all its powerful rays or all the lights have been turned on, even on auto mode if the picture is taken without flash then it doesnt count, oui these si lai's...in macau i finally got to go into the casinos, pretty rad. too bad it was with a bunch of old geezers and i didn;t know how to play anything. i did walk away with $100 more dollars than i went in with, but i should have made all the bets cause yours truly was 5 for 5, i think i have espN or something. last night my hairy, uber sweaty, insanely phlegmy fob cousin kept us all up due to his freakishly loud snoring. not normal for someone his age, we're sure he has some sort of medical condition. not to mention my lil bro dicky has an extremely weak stomach here and has to poop 4 times a day and death inducing farts. the other day he was pooping and i was chillin in the living room and THIS AWFUL STENCH filled my beautiful nostrils. the servant told us not to breath in but then even she couldn't handle it and had to open up all the windows. i could smell his shitpile in the next bathroom over. IT PERMEATED THROUGH THE WALLS. i wanted to die, kids got issues. and i can't catch up on any of my tv shows. the one english show they have is MONK which is blah. so now i have no choice but to get hooked on these stupid azn soap operas, which i swore i wouldn't...oh another story we were eating and the miss. hong kong pageant was on, #13 won and DICK TWEETED taylor swift about it becuase thats her lucky number. i could go on and on with stories about how special he is. i have to face him day in and day out and i fear for my brain cells by the time i get back to school. okay those are my travel stories for the day, i'm waiting to be retrieved right now but i think my mother forgot to come get us. she forgot her birthday the other day and how old her son is.

hope you're having a good summer bon qui qui ;) ;)

rove always,
fiquid

hey turds

everything is in frikin chinese and i cant read jackshit...

wow, i forgot about this nifty lil blog.
okay so since Buhbies and Turkey still read this i will provide an update on the LIFE OF AN EGGRORR. i am now halfway around the world in the land of my ancestors. i've basc been sleeping. kinda missin the good U.S. of A already cause no ones know what i'm tlakin about. i'll be like hey check out that GUID there or that chola looking hott mess ova there and they'll just stare at me. and they dont seem to understand that you cant be a celtics fan and have a kobe poster hanging in you room. thats like tellin someone you're a yankees and red sox fan which i would just roll my eyes at and give you pure sass cause it makes no sense. speaking of which no one here understands when i sass them or understand that being a fresh piece of attitude to me is highly unacceptable. plus it is BALLS HOT HERE, i can't even breath. okay tomorrow i will finally venture out and maybe buy a video camera and documents my travels. and get some frikin wifi cause i cannot deal with all the chinese on this computer.

oh and take glamour shots like such with my azn family.

yes that is Mike oh whoops i mean THE SITUATION.



peace to the bumcrease,
fiquid

SUP PEEPS.

Green Tip: For wrapping and boxing, use recycled paper. Go for boxes made from recycled cardboard. Most post offices and stationers provide these products.

mood: things feelin a little bittersweet
currently listening to: Airplanes-B.o.B

herro, its been awhile. i apologize. what to write about today...?
um well i haven't stopped eating. munchin away nearly every waking hour of the day for the past week, i think i have a worm. instead of reading, i am pondering away about which country to go to for my peace corps work. right now i'm down to Jamaica, Morocco, South Africa, or Fiji.

also i am considering becoming a vegetarian full time. i'm sure that's gonna disappoint many, especially my meat lovin family. but so far i am failing for my love for bacon is far too strong. everyone should watch Food Inc. seriously, its sad when a hamburger costs less than a head of lettuce.

umm...what else, oh yeah i'm probably going to start making this a video blog (we'll see how long that lasts) but for the people who do read this, it would be really nice if you left some comments, do you like the setup, questions, thoughts, anything you would like to see in particular. it would just be nice for me to get some feedback.

oh isn't it sad when friends just drift apart for no reason....i was thinking about how close i was with so many people, practically inseparable with some, and then i don't know what happened, but you just wake up one morning and realize you haven't talked to these people in quite some time. and then you don't know what to talk about...so sad. but i guess the true good friends are the ones that stick around and no matter how much time has passed, its as if nothing's changed.

okay i need to go work out now.

PEACE,

Fiquid

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IT'S 4.20!

Happy Holiday Peeps.

this post is gonna be all green in celebration.

too bad i can't enjoy it cause my life is so complicated, uh huh thats the way it is.

yeah so the whole US snowboard team is en route to Maryland to visit Mr. Obama, i wish i could go to the airport and skope em out like the sketchy egg that i am. oh yes my sink exploded once again, no joke SHIT WAS SPEWING OUT LIKE A MASSIVE SHIT FOUNTAIN as i was tryin to put in my contacts. seriously, imagine a nice water fountain with clear crystalling wawa, BUT DARK SHIT mixed with food particles splattering everywhere. screamed bloody murder for my roomates, like the one time a jewish kid wore a cat mask and entered my room, it was so cute i had to run to another to vomit. called FIXIT, said they would probs come in about 2-3 days. so i got my fresh attitude on and told them that SHIT, i cannot stress that enough was pouring onto my carpet floor plus it smelled like death. lovely. started 10 minutes before my exams...thats the life of an eggrorr for ya.

okay here's my contribution for spreadin the love today,

this is for all you ignorant turds out there. Check it:

It’s high time to end marijuana prohibition

By Paul Armentano, NORML deputy director - 04/20/10 01:20 PM ET

By any objective standard, marijuana prohibition is an abject failure.

Nationwide, U.S. law enforcement have arrested over 20 million American citizens for marijuana offenses since 1965, yet today marijuana is more prevalent than ever before, adolescents have easier access to marijuana than ever before, the drug is more potent than ever before, and there is more violence associated with the illegal marijuana trade than ever before.

Over 100 million Americans nationally have used marijuana despite prohibition, and one in ten – according to current government survey data – use it regularly. The criminal prohibition of marijuana has not dissuaded anyone from using marijuana or reduced its availability; however, the strict enforcement of this policy has adversely impacted the lives and careers of millions of people who simply elected to use a substance to relax that is objectively safer than alcohol. NORML believes that the time has come to amend criminal prohibition and replace it with a system of legalization, taxation, regulation, and education.
Only by enacting state and local legislation on the use, production and distribution of marijuana, can state and local governments effectively impose controls regarding:

• Which citizens can legally produce marijuana;
• Which citizens can legally distribute marijuana;
• Which citizens can legally consume marijuana; and
• Where, and under what circumstances, is such use legally permitted.

By contrast, the prohibition of marijuana provides law enforcement and state regulators with no legitimate market controls.This absence of state and local government controls jeopardizes, rather than promotes, public safety.

For example: Prohibition abdicates the control of marijuana production and distribution to criminal entrepreneurs (e.g., drug cartels, street gangs, drug dealers who push additional illegal substances).

Prohibition provides young people with unfettered access to marijuana (e.g., according to a 2009 Columbia University report, adolescents now have easier access to marijuana than they do alcohol).

Prohibition promotes the use of marijuana in inappropriate and potentially dangerous settings (e.g., in automobiles, in public parks, in public restrooms, etc.).

Prohibition promotes disrespect for the law and reinforces ethnic and generation divides between the public and law enforcement (e.g., according to the FBI Uniform Crime Report, 75 percent of all marijuana arrestees are under age 30; African Americans account for only 12 percent of marijuana users, but make up 23 percent of all possession arrests).

Legalizing and regulating adult marijuana use would raise revenue, promote public safety and limit the access that young people have to marijuana. These are goals that lawmakers and the public ought to support.

It's time to end 70-plus years of marijuana prohibition with a policy of legalization, taxation, regulation and education.

Paul Armentano is the deputy director of the National Organization for the Reform of Marijuana Laws (NORML), and is the co-author of the book Marijuana Is Safer: So Why Are We Driving People to Drink?

hear hear brotha, now i leave you with this:

enjoy the day and take a minute to 'relax' ; )

PEACE!
Fiquid